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I feel like a creep for existing.
I don’t know why, but every time i talk to someone i feel gross. why do i dislike myself so much to the point of this happening.
I want to feel like a normal person, but i can’t because i see myself as a burden. I don’t get why my self-esteem is so low.
I hate the fact i can’t let myself experience the same joys other people do just because i think of myself so lowly. It’s really no surprise I’m lonely with how I treat myself.
I just want someone to reach out and tell me that I’m wrong, but how can anyone do that when I see myself as a burden.
I’m more hateful than I’d like to admit I am. I hate plenty of things, but I keep it to myself. It isn’t really anything big, just me getting worked up over little things, but I still feel bad about it.
I always fear upsetting someone. Even if it’s just me saying “I dislike X noun,” I still fear someone will get upset, and I don’t want that.
I hate the thought of making someone feel bad for something I said. I just want everyone to be happy, I don’t want to make any potential enemies, or make a bad impression.
hiiii ... finally a new entry, and it's in the new year. Happy (late) new year everyone. How is everyone doing today? I hope everyone is doing well.
There's a lot to update you all on ... for starters, I got certified for IT yesterday !! I'm officially certified in HTML and CSS, and I'm working to get certified in networking next. I honestly didn't expect to pass because I code for fun, and I'm self taught through w3schools ... I've never taken an actual class dedicated to coding ... so getting certified in this is both surprising and SO exciting. yay !! yay !! yay !! I'm still so giddy over this, and I love showing everyone my certificate.
On another note, i've been in the Zatch Bell trenches... I've started making custom merchandise of my fav since I can't get anything of him over here. I love taking every chance to talk about him, even my therapist knows about him, but it was so embarrasing because I look over and they're jotting down his name ... but i do love him dearly
I don't think i've really related to a character more than i have now. i look at him and i long to be him.
I might make another entry dedicated to him (or just start his damn shrine) because I have plenty to say about his character.
thank youuuu for reading my rambling ...
Hiiii ... welcome back to the blog ... how have everyones holidays been so far? I do hope they're going well.
Christmas was yesterday ... i got to order photocards of my favs, and I'm so so happy about that. I also spent time with my aunts from my mom's side, which was the biggest highlight. This year we didn't travel and instead hosted chirstmas at my home, and I'm hoping we do the same next year because i enjoyed that a bunch. It was nice having to not be overly exhausted from travelling, and not spending a bunch of money going to and from ...
The only downside is the fact im SICK. I can't stop coughing and my throat is sore from coughing up a lung every 5 minutes. I'm going to tug my hair out, I couldn't sleep properly because of it. I remember waking up in the middle of the night in a couging fit ... I wouldn't wish this upon my worst enemy. I sound like shit and I should probably rest my voice but I love yapping ... i caaaan't ...
Okaaaay, finally finished the code for here.
Hi hi !! how are we all doing today !! I hope we're all doing well ... and if you're not, I hope your day gets better.
I've started collecting pokemon cards again after a while of .. not being into the franchise as much as I used to. though it's come back in full force and yay !!! I forgot how much i loved this franchise omigosh, especially with legends ZA being released. I've started replaying both BW (1+ 2) and USUM, and the love I've had for brycen is still as strong as ever. Wahhh he's so cool, I love how he went back to being an actor in BW2 ... his gym was easy but it's ok I lost like 2 times on purpose. brycen ily and O think you and your gym should be appreciated more